i got the happiest surprise of my life when i saw two pink lines on a pregnancy test just last friday. we had been trying for two years with no luck. we couldn’t believe it was finally happening to us.

just as fast as the joy came, it’s gone. i just found out this morning that i am miscarrying. they believed i was between 4-5 weeks at my first US, but based on my lmp i should’ve been 6-7 by then. they said i could’ve just ovulated later. they drew blood and my hcg only went to from 3316 to 4706 in 48 hours. i started brown spotting last night, ultrasound this morning confirmed the baby never started to develop. blighted ovum. i don’t know nor do i understand why this is happening, we tried for two years, this was my first pregnancy. i can’t believe this. i just want to shut myself away and cry forever. i had a feeling something was wrong. i’m not sure why i’m posting this, i just need some sort of closure. i’m so scared the miscarrying process is going to hurt. i’m so scared to try again. we told everyone right away. we shouldn’t have, but we were excited. now i have to explain to everyone what happened. i’m a mess.