Defeated.

Before I got pregnant I weighed 150 pounds. I’m 5’6. I wanted to lose a few pounds but not overweight by any means. I gained 40 pounds with my daughter and now I’m almost 12 months pp, breastfeeding, and I am still 20 pounds up from my pre pregnancy weight. 3 weeks ago I started eating mostly vegan. I cut most processed foods out and also almost stopped eating junk food and sugar. No pop. I swore last week that I was losing. I felt better, I thought I looked better. And today I feel huge still. It’s like I completely changed my diet. Along with attending moms in motion workout classes twice a week. And nothing is happening. I literally cry looking at myself. When I have to get dressed... I sit on the floor and bawl. I hate the way I look and I’m devastated that no matter what I do... I can’t lose any weight. I’ve weighed the exact same for probably 6 months or so. I just want to be confident again.