Just need to vent. Sorry for the long post. So many emotions going on. Though this pretty wasn’t planned we are very excited to meet our little guy. I took me awhile to come around to the idea of another baby but I’m there now and I’m board. I’m a cosmetologist, I do hair nails and eye lashes so I get a good balance of standing and sitting thru the day, it seems as if I’m the only person to ever of had a baby and be a cosmetologist as my clients are freaking out about what they’re supposed to do after I have the baby. I’ve come to the conclusion I have no choice but to work here and there after he gets here. My husband and I looked at finances last night and it hit me I really have no choice but to work after he gets here with the most a week off once he arrives. I’m already working up to when he arrives. I struggled with ppd with my first I asked for help and none was given I was told that’s part of being a new mom. She’s two and half now and I still struggle at times. I’m afraid of going thru ppd with this little one full blown all over again or not getting the full bond with him. 😭😔 my dh feels horrible I’m stressing about money now and for after our little man gets here he tries to take the brunt of it all but I can’t help but worry about how we’re supposed to make it. 😥😰