My husband and I have been fighting and it’s mostly due to his lack of emotional control and maturity. I want to make things work so I have recommended he get counseling. I see a psychiatrist myself because I know I’m not perfect either and need medicine to keep my mental health in check. Every time we have a huge fight and I bring it up, he says he’ll do it. But he never does. Never does anything about it. Until we have a huge fight again and again I say that he needs counseling and he knows he does and we’re back to square one.

We were talking about it this week and he told me he doesn’t even know how to get counseling. He’s never even made a doctors appointment before. I’m 25. He’s 27. It’s not like we’re fresh out of high school. We’re grown adults at this point. But apparently I’m the adult one though. The bills are in my name, the bank account, the car, etc.

I have a college degree. I work full time and get benefits from the company I work at. There’s some beneficiary paperwork I need to have on file for some of my benefits in case anything happens and part of that is his ID or drivers license. His ID expired on his birthday in May. All the bills and mail go to me so he has nothing with his address on it to prove to the DMV that he is who he says he is to get a new one. He realized this THIS MORNING when I brought up making sure he gets a new ID Tomorrow. And he has known about needing this since Monday.

I guess I’m mostly just ranting but I’m at the point where I feel like wtf am I even doing with my life? I’m 18 weeks pregnant and now I’m going to raise an actual child while living with a manchild who can’t even make a goddamn doctor’s appointment. I feel like an idiot for even getting pregnant at this point because I’m going to have to work extra hard to make sure he doesn’t instill in child his lack of maturity, drive, and emotional stability.