First night alone UPDATE

***UPDATE

Today I left my daughter's father. Today I am no longer in a controlling, toxic relationship. Today I am so sad.

I've written many times about thinking about leaving my fiance due to his jealousy, controlling behaviors, and him being emotionally abusive. Last night, I got home from dropping my sister off and traffic was awful so our normal 1.5 hr drive turned into 3. When I got home with the baby, he gave us the silent treatment. Then he proceeded to accuse me of cheating on him. I told him I couldn't do it anymore. He had $460 of mine that I gave him for safe keeping, but he refused to give it back. He locked it in a safe and when I tried to get my money, he grabbed me and fought me for the keys. After that, he proceeded to call me a skeezy whore and say I'm a mistake and so was having a baby with me.

Fast forward to this morning... I just couldn't take it anymore. I told him I was done and then went to go pack my clothes downstairs while our baby slept upstairs. He came down and threw my clothes across the room and punched a hole in the door and wall. I have never been so scared of him.

I grabbed my daughter to leave and he followed us to my car, got in the passenger seat and refused to let us leave. Eventually I was able to leave.

He kept calling and calling saying how sorry he was, but I wasn't budging. Then he got mad. Cancelled my car insurance and started to throw all our stuff outside. I told him I was getting a police escort and after the cops came to talk to me... they decided to arrest him. I didnt want that ti happen. So here I am absolutely heartbroken that it got to this place and just feeling so sorry that he's in jail...

My life is a mess.

So he is out. He's saying he will do anything to fix this and get his family back. Is couples counseling worth it? Should I stay away until i know he will change? I'm so torn!