I'm tired of crying

Maybe I'm broken I think I'm broken I don't know I can't get pregnant after my eptopic pregnancy and them taking my right tube in 2017 I haven't been able to get pregnant we've been trying and we've been having sex around my ovulation date I've been taking ovulation kit and still nothing. I seen at the store they have it count in sperm and egg count Sticks so I'm just going to try that and my husband is fine with doing that. I'm just not sure what to do anymore I just kind of want to give up cuz I'm tired I get a negative test every month i just wanna cry. This month I'm just going to wait for my period or if its late then ill test I just know that I'm tired of buying pregnancy tests and every little pain I have I'm tired of my husband saying you may be pregnant.