Venting

15 months and counting... I am happy for other people but I keep asking and praying for it to be me. My husband had our baby names picked out from he was a young child and told me them when we got engaged... been praying for us to get pregnant but so far nada... I have pcos and so every doctor tells me loose weight... like I am not trying but I told myself we are going to keep trying and I will also focus on health and getting my body and mind ready. It is hard because everyone asks me, especially since I am a child therapist.... and my in-laws go in about how my father in law passed and my husband is the only child he didn’t live to see have a child... I feel like we can’t get pregnant because of me and my body.... everyone just says loose weight loose weight like it is so easy.... I would do it if I could. I eat healthier now than I ever have in my entire existence and I am waking 4-5 days per week. I don’t know what else I can do to help shock my body into overdrive to let go of the fat... I feel like I am failing my husband