Does anyone else feel gross and like their dying after watching porn ?

For some reason I feel like after I watch it I’m in a diff reality and my brain hurts and I’m numb and I have jaut made the biggest mistake and I’m going to hell 😭😭😭

Anyone else feel like this after they watch porn ? Ever since I got pregnant I do ? Before I never had a problem but it’s like, my job now to watch out for two souls and beg for forgiveness after wards