My boyfriend of 4 and a half years. I love him so, so, so much. I thought he was THE ONE! ......but.......tonight I got a ‘Who the f**k are you?’ message from his phone. Honestly as I picked up my phone and saw it was him I was happy then I read the preview and my heart literally sank and smashed right then and there. I talked to HER yea. Her. Scared the crap out of me honestly. But she gave me proof that he had been constantly lying to me. He just recently broke up with his girlfriend of five years in December of 2018. Just this last week he had lied to me about where he had been and what he was doing. He said he was on the road selling things to make a bit of extra money. Lies. He was with his new girl The Who the f**k are you text girl. She told me that they had just been boyfriend girlfriend two weeks. Which is how long he had practically been void of communication. Let me tell you, I am not mad at her or even the 5 year girlfriend. I’m not even mad...I haven’t cried...I’m just eerily calm....and honestly I have no idea what to do. I heard it from another woman rather than him. He had constantly lied to me because I would ask him once every other month. He lied. A lot. He was at her house. Sleeping. I’m guessing they did the nasty I didn’t ask. She was more angry than I was. She woke him up to kick him out and he got angry. I wasn’t even worried at this point and I told her if he gets out of hand to just call the cops on him. There’s no reason why another person especially as nice as her should get hurt by an asshole like him.

I want answers, I want closer, I want to hear him tell me the truth, and I want him to see how unaffected I am. Girls...I really love him still...even though he’s been lying and cheating...I know I shouldn’t. But I want to hear him tell me why and I don’t know if I’ll ever get the chance...so I guess..do you guys have any ideas on how to get a hold of him or do you think I should just drop it and move on?