Mentally worn out

So maybe long post..

Baby has been breech since 20 weeks. No bigger they thought. I'm now 36+5 she's still breech. My doctor set up a consult with a surgeon for a csection the 22nd if she doesn't turn. Ok still hope there.. I have a nearly 2 year old at home. Csection is going to make everything a lot harder.

Well I have a history of high blood pressure and have been induced in both my previous pregnancies for it at 38.5 weeks. I was sent to hospital Tuesday for 5 hours to get it under control. While there I asked them to check her fluid because it's been low off and on. They said nothing and just checked to see if she was still breech and set up the csection once BP was down. Ugh come on listen to me.

So yesterday I goto my high risk doctor an hour away. He does level 2 ultrasounds and found again. Her fluid was down to 4.9! So up stairs I go to have fluids and nst. He also said the likeliness of her getting head down now is very slim with so little fluid. I got back tomorrow to see if her fluid is up if not or if she shows signs of stress he said it may be "birth day time" once I'm 37 weeks (Saturday).

I hate feeling in the dark not knowing what's going to happen or how she's doing. She's moving great and her nst was perfect. I just know that low of fluid is such a big risk with cord compression but they want to keep putting things off.

I'm worn out from two days in two different hospitals. Trying to drink even more than I have been since her first fluid level being 5.8. I got it back to 8 then. So guess now is just get to see what happens!

Thank you for reading ladies and listening to me vent! I just wanted my last baby to go smoother than my others and it seems it's much harder! Lol