Might be pregnant again..

I just went to the bathroom and when I wiped there was pinkish discharge and I’m getting light cramps. I just had an abortion about a month ago but didn’t get on birth control yet so I’m really worried but I know that it’s my fault. If I even wanted another one idk if my insurance would cover it again. If that’s the case I’m thinking of just going through with the pregnancy if I really am pregnant. Even though I don’t have a job, no money and still live at home. 😔 I feel so bad and my parents will hate me