I just don’t know how to feel happy anymore

We lost our first baby at 9 weeks, that day my world changed forever I just haven’t felt happiness since, mostly just putting on a brave face and taking it one day at a time. This was our first cycle we could try again and I just felt so good we had sex everyday in my window and about 5 DPO my boobs started to hurt like they did with my first pregnancy and I was so tired.

I was just so hopefully that I would be pregnant again and be able to be happy again but AF came yesterday a few days before I had through and I just puts me in such a depression. It’s just killing me and I don’t know how I can be remotely happy. My sister is pregnant all my friends are pregnant it’s just killing me.

I just don’t know how to be the person I was anymore.