Honestly , I’m a loner I’m good at being a loner every time I try an get friends like “girl-friends” they are just fake or too much for me. It gets annoying at times cause I wish that I could have close friends that I can trust an hang out with an just have fun. But every single time I do think that I have a close friend they take advantage of my kindness an they end up being fake I don’t think I’m meant to have friends I didn’t have any in school an I still don’t. I’m not a mean person in fact I’m way to nice of a person an let people walk over me I try not but I look at it this way if someone needs help I’ll be there I’m not looking for anything in return it does nothing for my ego I just do it cause I genuinely don’t want someone to struggle I know what that feels like. However it does hurt thinking about all the stuff I have done for people an also realizing nobody gives two fucks about me. I never ask for help or even bother anyone with my problems I just suffer in silence 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’m a little bit over it now I don’t wanna be nice to people I wanna say no to everything An everyone who wants something from me an I just want to be selfish from now on. Unfortunately it isn’t in my character even if I tried but it is how I feel & I wish I could change who I am because it really hurts & no one is to blame but myself for being too nice to people. My daughter is my bestfriend she’s a baby but I don’t care lol I’m going to raise her to be strong an not to let people take advantage of her I guess I have to teach her to learn from my mistakes I wish I had a mom growing up to teach me that so I didn’t have to learn the hard way that people suck.