Stress Rant

Seryna

I'm 34 weeks and 2 days today and I'm just ready to have my baby! I'm leaking everyday just like normal discharge and mucus plug. I literally won't notice till it's already leaked through my underwear and on to my couch! I'm also super nervous about the baby because I haven't had an ultrasound since I was 20 weeks and 5 days. I then at 29ish weeks had an 8 hour flight from Chicago to London because my husband is Air Force so we are now stationed here in the UK. I had my first OB appointment here in the UK at 30 weeks, they didn't really do anything. They just used the Doppler to check the baby's heart and then measured my stomach. I had another appointment at 32 weeks were they again just checked the heart rate and measured my stomach. Now my next appointment isn't till I'm 36 weeks and 5 days, they will then finally give me an ultrasound! I feel like that's so late to be getting one, I feel like I should have an appointment at 35 weeks not 36! The hospital on base also has a new OB for me each appointment I go too! I have like no consistency and it bothers me so much, I feel like they don't even care when I go into an appointment. They just want to get me in and out as fast as possible. This is my first pregnancy and I'm so stressed out about just feeling like I don't know anything about the baby. I feel her moving around everyday which does make me feel slightly better but at the same time I want to see her and verify with my eyes that she's okay and that everything is good. I feel like once she gets here I will feel so much better but till that day comes I'm just constantly stressed.