Vbac or repeat csection

Id say i had a pretty traumatizing birth - to me anyways... ended in a csecton.

Every single day I debate in my head if i want to try for a vbac (obgyn said id be a great candidate) or just go with a repeat csection to avoid the same experience happening again.

I think about it and flip flop my answer every single day and im not even pregnant- yet.

My mom had 4 csections and is convinced that its genetic and I wont be able to have a vaginal delivery. But bedside a heathy baby I want nothing more but to have a vaginal delivery.

But part of me feels like i wont be able to handle going through what i did the first time all over again and should just go with a csection. But will i be even more upset with myself for not even trying... idk

I guess I just want to talk about it with someone. Maybe if someone can relate or just go over my thoughts with me....