Any moms who previously suffered from an eating disorder?

Em

I’m currently TTC and have struggled with anorexia and BDD for a long time. I’ve pretty much conquered anorexia, but still struggle a lot with how I feel about myself. I was wondering how you felt when you got your bump. Did you feel fat and bad about yourself, or did you love it? I’m afraid that I’ll feel horrible about myself even though I want my baby so badly!