When I was younger I was sexually assaulted for years. I tried everything I could to not think about it but I can’t. I think that it was my fault. It was more than one guy but on top of that it was family. I used to cut to cope but then I found music. Making music helps but the rape still affects me in ways my family don’t try to understand. My family who didn’t do it said that bc I was raped that I will be horny all the time. I’m only 14 and what they said is true. I always want sex but not just from anyone. My girlfriend is 13 almost 14 next month and she’s who I want sex with but I’m taking things slow with her bc I want her to be my forever. I’m so confused on everything. My family is no help on this. I’m back to being alone in these situations.