Venting

I was with this lad for two years, I thought he was the love of my life, he was amazing to me, always here for me, made me laugh, made me happy, he was the one for me. But then things happened and I lost trust in him, I was constantly wanting to know where he is and who he was talking too, we would fight over small things, arguing turned into pushing and hitting, I know I should of left but I was stupid enough to think he would change, gave him chance after chance, he never changed. He talked to me so horrible, he made me feel worthless and so shit all the time but he was also the reason for my happiness. He broke up with me because he hasn’t loved me in a few weeks and he likes this other girl. My head is all over the place, I’m trying to say to myself that if he loved me he wouldn’t of done all the shit to me, but I’m still here crying ever second over him, his family and friends told me not to chase after him, and I just wish I listened to them.