SO not ready...

I’m 23 weeks pregnant and happily married. Picture perfect really.

Out of nowhere, all I can think about now is adoption. 🙁 I was so excited to have my baby boy too!! Nursery is almost complete and my whole family knows and is still sending us sweet gifts.

I haven’t told my husband about these thoughts... Though my husband mentioned it out of the blue just 2 weeks ago. 😅

Were truly blessed to have him as I have struggle with my fertility after getting severe uterine scarring because of an IUD. But both me and my husband don’t feel connected to him.

We’ve named him and done just about everything we can think of in prep for him.

But i’m 20, my husband is 21 and we have so much yet to live for. I can’t imagine giving him up after childbirth, but I can’t imagine having and keeping him either.

I really don’t know what to do with this little life all dependent on me. 😭 I’m so not ready now... Advice anyone? :(