I need a psychic. Or advice

I'm turning 18 in November and I have so many plans for myself! I'm currently in a relationship with someone I love very much. We're planning on moving in together next year. The thing is that i keep seeming to get signs that make me feel like I could be making a mistake. I always pictured myself independent and living on my own and free. I want to be independent and alone but I also want to be with him and live together. Idk which one I want more. When I look into the future and see myself with him I feel off about it and idk why. In the other hand when I see myself alone I feel that I'd be making a huge mistake not being with him. Idk what to do and it's been weighing heavy on my mind especially when we're together.