Ladies, please help me out

I know that during your first trimester your emotions are all over the place and that’s normal. But this massive change is really having an affect on my mental health. I have a history of depression and I’m scared I’ve developed prenatal depression.

I don’t feel like I’m in control of any of my emotions at all and I will constantly lash out at my partner and I’m pushing him away. I don’t feel present, I feel highly insecure about all the changes my body is about to go through, I just feel so very down. Not to mention I’m physically exhausted, which is making not want to do anything but lay in bed.

This time is meant to be the most exciting and happiest time of your life and I don’t feel happy?

I have always wanted to be a mum and I feel extremely guilty for feeling sad at this time.

Has anyone experienced this so I know I’m not alone..

I just don’t know what to do