I just need to vent š
I.am.struggling.
Iām not depressed, but I am struggling. My whole life Iāve wanted to be a mama, my daughter is 8 weeks old & since my (now) husband and I first met 2 years ago weāve both said we wanted kids a year apart! We PLANNED for that. We got pregnant 2 weeks after our wedding. Iāve recently brought up the topic of baby #2. Weāve talked and talked, & weāre both on board!
This is my fertile week and Iāve mentioned it to my husband, he sees the ovulation tests on the bathroom counter, he KNOWS. When he gets home from work heās all game for BD, but around 10pm when we put our baby down heās ājust too tiredā. We got into it tonight cause he specifically has not wanted to have sex ALL WEEK? We started arguing about how āyouāll always be tired in the evening/nighttime, you went to work today?ā And he lashed back with āyou donāt do anything all day of course you arenāt tiredā
My heart broke. Itās not that serious, I know, but we both have the mindset of āthe man goes to work and the woman stays home to raise the babiesā (donāt get me wrong I adore my daughter and wouldnāt trade it for the world) how could he throw it in my face that I stay home with our baby? We agreed in that? That was our plan? It made me feel worthless and taken advantage of
Later in bed, about an hour ago, he apologized and said he didnāt mean it the way it sounded. I am still so livid. I didnāt say anything. I havenāt spoken to him since.
I guess Iām just trying to say idk what to do, he agrees to try for baby #2, but once we put our daughter to bed āheās too tiredā, I thought this was important to us? We have a PLAN? My most fertile days are today (18th) and tomorrow 19th. I thought we wanted this so Iām giving it my all, and I really wanted to try this month, and I just feel like heās so not on board, but then tells me he is, I get excited, and then all my hopes are let down and my feelings are hurt. It could just be my hormones but this has been going on all week.
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