Everything was going great and I thought I was basically back to normal until I had my 6 week pp appointment.. the Dr told me everything was healed up nicely but there was some scarring due to 2nd degree tear and I should apply some vitamin e oil to loosen things up a bit. I definitely still have some very mild discomfort so I haven't even gone near down there since the baby. Ended up taking a mirror down and OMG so depressing! I thought I was going to be totally healed by 6 weeks but things are still swollen and putting the oil on made me realize how sore I still am 😭 now I'm just so depressed thinking it will never go back to normal, even though I read lots of posts on here saying it can take more time even months. If I hadn't just had my appointment I would think something was seriously wrong lol.

Just sad for me, and feel bad for my husband now because I don't feel like I even want to touch down there right now and having him come near me any time soon freaks me out big time.

Still glad I did the VBAC because recovery was way easier but now my poor vajayjay ☹️

Anyone else in the same boat? Seems like there are a lot of you already jumping back into bed and I'm over here like 😱