I've been really low lately. My fiance is states away (in the army), he's basically my rock of hope. Everything is so much worse when he's away. I'm trying to keep myself up, I'm just tired and sad all the time. Then there's always that thought of escape by suicide. It's just lurking around. I don't want to and I feel like great things are waiting for me if I stay. I'm just tired. And lonely. My friends don't really help. I'm beginning to think I don't really have friends.