Spina bifida, amputee and Bulimic

Hi I’m tia I’m 21 and I was born with spina bifida which is a cyst on the spine that causes nerve damage lucky enough I’m able to walk and I’m thankful for that everyday. I got bullied a lot in school because I walked with a limp which I never understood why cuz that’s literally all they could judge me for is something I couldn’t help. Fast forward about 2016 I ended up getting a pressure sore due to the spina bifida and ended up losing my good leg which was my right ( the left side was where the cyst was) anyway I basically got a really bad bone infection to the point where I was basically dying it was eating me from the inside out and at this time I was really just trying to finish high school. Anyway i need up Geri g a prosthetic and I didn’t really even needed physical therapy I kinda just knew what to do anyway I thought shit was goin be ok and easy but let me just say because of the trama I been though since childhood the icing on the cake was losing my leg and let me say I have Severe depression severe ptsd and anxiety I’m also very paranoid... and yes I PURGE I started about a year or 2 ago but it didn’t start getting bad till January of this year..... I weighed 197 I’m now 116 and that bad and I just don’t know what to do ik I need help and ik I need a team of doctors to fuckin save me or I’m going to die but I’m scared I’m scared to change cuz I’m use to this shit by now and I just wish I had someone who could help and relate and uk tell me shit gets better because if I can’t get my head outta my ass I will not be alive much longer because my doctors don’t even k ow if they wanna call it Bulimia cuz I have didn’t symptoms from didn’t types of disorders so I’m under as and un know eating disorder which pisses me off because why me yo I’m scared anyway I just needed to vent ❤️