I admit I’ve been suffering a bit of depression lately. I have hyperemisis, a rash all over my body, my thyroid is super out of wack, plus a ton of stressors at home and work. My energy level is zapped. I’m hoping the thyroid meds that I started today help with some of this.

Now, I want this baby, I love this baby, but I keep having dreams where he’s born and I refuse to even look at him or have anything to do with him. I tell my SO to take him in these dreams and I refuse to nurse him or anything. I’m starting to worry that I’m going to detach from him because I have these dreams literally daily now.

Has anyone experienced something like this? What can I do? I’ve been getting plenty of sunshine and exercise, I eat when I can but a lot of food still comes back up yet. I don’t want to go on depression meds because my daughter has a heart defect from lexapro. I can’t shake this feeling of worthlessness though, like I’m not fit to be this baby’s mother.