Lost my virginity🌸

I was at my boyfriends house and we have talked about sex a couple times and he has slept with other ppl before so he told me that he's not gonna try anything until I say I'm ready cause he knew I was a virgin.(go to the 4th paragraph for the sex I was giving back story first)

Ok back story I was at my friends house talking to her about it cause I was ready I was just scared cause I knew it was gonna hurt but I told myself I was gonna tell him I'm ready so I shaved EVERYTHING lol

So I go to his house and we smoke some weed and were just chilling on his bed watching the office and I was kinda back to myself so I looked at him and said "I'm ready,I'm just scared cause ik its gonna hurt and I'm ugly lol" then he looked at me and said "it is gonna hurt but your not ugly" I then asked him if he has ever slept with a virgin and before and if he knew what to do and he said ya and he knows that you have to go slower. After that I was like ok bet.

So we were just laying there and we started kissing for awhile and he asked me if he could pull down my pants and we kept kissing and I finally said ya so he lifted off of me and unbuttoned my shorts and pulled them down then pulled down my underwear and he put his finger in me and started kissing me again then he took his finger out and went down and started eating me then he set up and pulled his pants down and bitch lol I was like this shit about to hurt.

He then went to put it in and that shit hurt so bad lol I was gripping on his arm with my nails digging in his skin like I was about to fall of a cliff and he was saving me.

He then ended up going soft cause he was just sitting there with it in me so I could get used to it and at that part I was hurting so I was like let me just use the bathroom and I did and came back and I was bleeding but not bad.

We ended up going again at it went better that time.It still hurt but not as bad as the 1st time.Neither of us finished but I don't regret it and I'm glade I did it with him cause he made sure I was as comfortable as pose sible because he kept asking if I was ok and making sure I wasn't hurting to bad.Know I'm soar lol so I'm taking a bath.

Sorry if you didn't like it I just wanted to put my story out there and have it here if I wanted to I could read this later.Have a good day you guys:)