relationship advice

i recently caught feelings for this guy, he was really sweet, attractive & more.... i told him i had feelings for him, he said “awww same. how far are you wanting to take this?” i told him i just wanted to stay friends, because i didn’t want anything to get in the way of that. & eventually the feelings i had for him, went away, it’s like i woke up & they were all gone. like; i didn’t want to have anything to do with him.

but

i also, just got out of a 7month relationship with the guy i thought i’d spend forever with, he was the first guy i’ve ever said “i love you” too & i did love him but, i broke up with him because he was too clingy & i had a bunch of family problems going on, i just didn’t want him in the mix of it.

i told the person that i did like, i didn’t want to be in a relationship, i didn’t like him anymore, i just wanted to be friends, but i told him if we were going to be friends, i didn’t want any mixed feelings or him trying something & he said “i can’t just turn off those feelings for you”

BTW (HES NEVER BEEN IN A RELATIONSHIP, A SENIOR, IM A SOPHOMORE, I’VE HAD BFS, HES NEVER KISSED A GIRL, VIRGIN, IM A VIRGIN)

but i feel like if we got into a relationship and so on... it would be harder to walk away from something like that than easier to just let go, now.

he’s always trying to text me & snap me on snapchat but, i just leave him on open because the feelings are gone. idk where they went, it’s like they just disappeared, it’s not my fault idk, it’s complicated, ig.

i guess i just don’t want to go into school this year knowing that someone owns me, or someone’s sprung on me, holdin me down or sum.

i just want to do me & don’t have to answer to anyone about anything.

is that bad?