Hey ladies I need some advice right now in high school I had these two best friends that helped me through everything I would tell them anything. At the same time I was also going through things with my family and I turned to alcohol and was doing bad stuff with men. Then I would go to them when I was sad and needed help, but I didn’t know that I was using them because I thought we were best friends. I talked to them and they told me that they feel hurt that I ruined the friendship and that I was using them and how I would go to them but I would never listen to them. They said that I was a toxic friend. After that I started to change myself and remove myself from my past and all I wanted was all of us to move on too. They didn’t want me to be there friend because I fucked it up. One of the girls told me to not call back or do anything like that. The other one told me that I had to fix it but she is not going to fix it, I asked them how can I but they told me nothing. So that’s why I am here I need help, I admit I was a terrible friend and I used them but that’s because I was even using myself as well but I changed and found God and all I want is to have them back. How can I fix this. Please they mean everything to me.