Soo, I my heart drops when anyone hold my daughter. Like I instantly get jealous. I always feel like shes gonna love them more than me. I was 18 when I had her by csection. I try to take care of her how I want to and then my fiances family gets mad about it. Like they say I hold her too much and thats why she cries, or I cant feed her something and thats why shes always sick. I always feed her baby foods and baby safe solids. (( Shes 9 months old )) and i do take offers on how to make things better but if something i do works for me i usually stick with it. Like if i want her to wesr a headband someone rips it right off her head and says she diesnt need it. She cries for mama and someone ELSE scoops her up when i go to do it. I try to put her down for a nap, and someone wakes her up and takes her to another room without me around. I sit next to my baby while someone else holds her im being too clingy. I wanna hold her alot im a horrible parent. like i try to share her but i never really got to experience her as a newborn bc i rejected her at first. now im trying to make up for it and parent how i want but i feel like everyone is against me on it. I just want my daughter to be my daughter... Fiance thinks i need to share more. I do, everyone holds her, everyone makes her laugh, everyone does everything too. they even get to watch her too. But like, i wanna teach her to walk not someone else, i wanna teach her how to say dada, auntie, hi bye etc. no one else. I wanna be the teacher .. not them. idk if its selfish, but its how i feel ... opinions?