But today...

I took time for ME, did my make up and took this pic and I feel beautiful for the first time in years 😭😭💕 especially since having my newest son 13 (almost 14) months ago. I put on extra weight during my pregnancy and had a rough delivery (I almost died) and the healing process was so slow. I feel fat everyday and hate how I look naked. I'm always trying to cover up my belly and I cant stand looking in a full length mirror. I fear my honey is losing interest in me, constantly. And I love him so much I dont want that to happen!!! (I've recently seen things he looks at online that make me feel even more self concious).. (also, no I didnt snoop, it popped up & I seen it)..

But yeah this pic made me cry because for the 1st time in years I saw MYSELF as beautiful...

Sorry for long post just in an emotional rut and needed to share ♡ ttyl