FELL IN LOVE WITH MY FUCK BUDDY 🤦🏻‍♀️

Soooooooo for over a few months I was in a fun loving relationship with this amazing guy who’s smart, athletic, and respectful with a great sense of humor...but unfortunately we knew a relationship was a conflict of interest since we worked together. When we broke it off we decided to stay fuck buddies and believe me it was the greatest couple months of my life 🤤😍. We allowed each of us to have other fuck buddies but I never really took advantage of it. He switched jobs and him and I started smashing more often (with some amazing cuddle seshes in between). I just realized two or three days ago how much this guy really means to me and how badly I want to be there for him romantically. Buttttttt....he’s leaving out of state for a college transfer which means I won’t be able to see him again for a while. And on top of that earlier today I was curious about stopping by so I texted him...and turns out he had another girl there for a quick bone. I knew he had plenty of girls in the past and that he had a few fuck friends currently but we had spoken rules that “you could fuck whoever you want as long as you don’t cuddle with them afterwards and don’t vent your problems to them.” So right now I’m having mixed feeling and would love any advice in guiding me toward the right direction.