A little back story me & my husband have been together since we been 16 we are now 22. (Together for 4 married for 3)

I came from a family where i wasnt allowed to be friends wit any boys or hangout wit guy friends. So when i got together wit my husband i had to introduce him to my parents as my boyfriend so we could hangout. Well anyways we dated it got serious. At age 18 i got pregnant had out baby. Everything was peachy got married❤️ we wer completed. After 6 months we found out i was pregnant again.😑 had r baby. Now have our hands-full wit to babies.

Anyways depression hit me hard. Becuz i had gained so much weight wit my second pregnancy i wasnt able to bounce back to where i was before. I was a size 5 in pants i am now a size 12😡😡.

I though i wasnt sexy anymore. Sex was not something i wantef due to me being naked i wasnt ever in the mood. Fast forward to a yr later. My confidence was so low. Thought i was an ugly fat girl. My husband really didn’t compliment me.

Well i started work. & notice men tryna get my attention. It made me feel good about my self again. I felt sexy.l❤️ knowing im actually still good looking for other men. I started finding other men attracted instead of my own husband. I started having fantasy’s about these other men. Now me & our husbands relationship is just boring to me. Its the same thing everyday. Dont foget to mention our sex is just what u call BORING. ive mention a few times alot of things i want to do to spice it up & he isnt with it. Ive told him lets make videos & upload them. & he says no.

I need some help wit my marriage before it falls apart or i do something stupid? Pm so u can help🙌🏽🙌🏽

Thank youu