So.. I feel like I have nowhere else to turn and no one to talk to about this without a biased opinion.

I was in an emotionally abusive relationship for a long time and I got out and I blocked him, yay!

Up until I got that feel of missing him because obviously he wasn’t all bad or why would I have stayed for so long, right?

Anywho.. I messaged him like a dumbass, and it’s this back and forth game of “ I want you, I don’t want you, I don’t know.. I’ve changed (but has he?) blah blah..”

my question to you is;

A. Is it normal to want him to want me and to miss him? (He cheated on me a few times)

B. Should I take the chance that he’s changed?

And C. Should I just rip the band aid and block and get rid of him? What if the next girl he dates gets the good treatment when I got garbage? ...

He was my best friend and my first REAL relationship and I love(d) him and I feel so lost. The good and bad constantly weigh on me and it’s been hard.

***update!***

After a long sit down with myself I’ve realised my life is so much better without him dragging me down emotionally. I blocked him on everything and I feel so free