Today was an upsetting day for me again. I was four days late and I was excited to think that I was finally pregnant with me and my husbands first baby. But unfortunately I got my period. Thinking about it more it is probably a good thing though. My body has been through hell and back in the past year... in the beginning of the year I unfortunately lost a pregnancy at 13 weeks and had to get a D&C. Hardest thing I have gone through since my dad passing. Later on was diagnosed with a kidney infection that was very bad waiting any longer to go to the hospital could have been very bad. While at the hospital getting treated for my kidneys that found something in my uterus... it was not a baby so they decided to go in a remove it. Turns out it was part of the pregnancy from before that they left behind... it could have caused a very bad infection and could have killed me. Thinking back in all of this it puts my mind at ease knowing that I am not pregnant right now.. I don’t want to put my body through any more then it has been. It’s been a rough year and even though I want a baby sooo bad, for my health and my future babies health I can wait until my body is ready for me to have a baby.