Right now I am 13 months clean. My last session was the first in 27 months. And nothing particularly bad happened today. It was a normal day. But I have that familiar urge. That itch only a blade can scratch....

I literally only came here to look at the pitcures of the deep cuts to try at satisfy my craving that way. But it doesn't work that way. I know im sick. I know I need "help". But the help doesn't work. I'm so messed up that I find myself judging people's cuts!!! Like "That's not even a cut. Weak. Why even do it at that point?"

Wtf is actually wrong with me???