Feel a little sad

I didn’t get a baby shower in my last pregnancy because I didn’t want all the fuss and I’m quite a closed book. But this time I feel alot better about my self and I mentioned it to my mother and she said she will help me sort it. But I’ve mentioned it like 5 times and she’s ignored every single time so looks like I’m not having one 😞 and before I look spoilt I never ask for anything and I’d be paying for everything it would be nice to have a little event as I’ve never had a party or anything thrown for me. I’m 34 weeks so too late to sort one now and I know she hasn’t done a surprise because I wouldn’t want one. Just feel like I’m always pushed to the back