Thoughts ladies, I’m about to screw my self up i feel like.

Long story short i was with the man of my dreams for 5 years, he finally proposed in April, he left me about a month ago because he said all we do is fight, he thought his heart was in it, but he was miserable. We’ve talked on and off about it and he’s still unsure he’s scared i won’t change, he don’t know what he wants. We’re messaging about linking up tonight to.. well ya know. I know how bad i want to but i also know how badly this is going to screw with my emotions. My love for him will never die, and the sex is bombbbbbbbb. SOS