When will it ever be real

Ni

I've been having pretty bad period type cramps since yesterday. Like, to the point I don't want to see anyone or talk to anyone and I'm so, so grouchy. Lower back pain and stomach pain. Tons of pressure down there. I keep hoping it's going to turn into labor, but so far nothing that's time-able. I hate this pain and my brain keeps telling me my period is about to start 😂 well, no. It's not. 😂 And apparently labor isn't either 😩 39+3 and a hazard to everyone around me 😩 I'm also STARVING constantly, which isn't helping my mood!! Probably since I've started pumping to try to get labor rolling.