I’m sure many of you ladies didn’t see a post I made a few days ago. But I had my gorgeous little girl on July 7th, and her dad broke up with me and left me in the hospital alone and hour after delivery. He changed his phone number so I couldn’t contact time, I spent a week blowing up his email begging him to come back with no response...I finally popped up on him on his way to work and he told me he hasn’t been emotionally invested in the relationship in months, that I should have seen this coming, and to not pop up or contact him again.... I’m 4 weeks postpartum this passed week I started working out again to make myself feel better, and it works when I’m at the gym I’m happy and working out. But when I’m home I can’t help but to feel lonely even with my little one next to me, I haven’t taken down any of the pictures of me and her dad in the house, nor deleted any off of my phone I feel like what if he comes back and if I got rid of everything it will look like I didn’t care... I noticed tonight when I propped up the baby on the boppy with a blanket to feed her that I’ve decreased the amount I hold her, and that I don’t really try to breastfeed anymore I only do it to put her to sleep. I love my little one to pieces and love everyday with her but I can’t help to feel like without realizing it I’ve slowly started having a detachment to her. I don’t know if its only that I’m still upset about her father leaving me or if ppd is slowly creeping in on me🥺