so i have really server depression and my parents know that cause my school made my parents take me to a councilor and i know im supposed to be on anti depressants because my mom has told me but my family has always had problems with that type of drug and she thinks that I’ll get screwed up in the head like my dad and my boyfriend is very very toxic and mentally abusive but i know if i break up with him I’ll get called a slut and a hoe even more than i do my step dad is also mentally abusive and my dad is a drug addict and alcoholic and im not gonna see him for a few months anyway but my mom constantly blames me for her financial issues and says im the reason everyone in my family life is shit and I’ve tried to over three times and slit my wrist multiple times but i can’t tell anyone cause my boyfriend broke up with me last time and i don’t know what to do i just can’t bring my self to end everything cause i keep hoping every thing will get better but i wanna know if it won’t because then i just was here for no reason and i just think about ending everything cause im turning 13 this year and if my life is this shitty already why keep going :/