Help! I'm so upset!

My husband is really struggling with mental health. It's been going on for a year and a half (married for 1 year) that he has depression. We've been togheter for 4 years.

I've been supporting him and worked so hard to help him and make the relationship work.

Many many times I've been trying to advice therapy or medications... He tried a few times but always gives up too soon.

I'm not happy, he treats me horribly, he's always irritable and down. He doesn't want to do anything, he's always tired. Our honeymoon was a disaster!

I keep on telling myself that it's a disease and I have to support him through it... It's not his fault!

I've reached the bottom, I just wanted to make a happy family with him. I do really love him!

Now he's such in a bad place that he's saying he doesn't want kids because he s worried they are going to be like him.

I'm almost 34...all I want for my life at this point is to have my happy family, have kids!

I want this with him but he doesn't want it, I'm just deterioration his depression by putting pressure on him!

I'm thinking of leaving him, it's going to break my heart as I love him so much. I just don't want to ruin my life... I feel that if he doesn't want to ge better, he won't! And he's just going to drag me down with him.

Sorry if this is so long.... What do you think?

Should I leave him or keep on fighting for our relationship?

My personality is one that wants to help everyone and everything... Sometimes I forget about taking care of myself. I just want to help him but I also want a happy life for myself!