Tired

I’m so tired. I have been struggling with feeling inadequate, depressed, anxious, sad for so long and I just want to not feel this way anymore. I am doing everything I am supposed to- eating healthy, working out, taking medicine, talking to people- but I just can’t seem to get better. I wish I could just sleep until I felt better again. At this point I don’t know that I will ever feel normal again and feel that I‘ll just live my entire life going through the motions. I don’t even know why I’m posting this. Maybe to feel less alone or just vent. I don’t want to kill myself because I know my family will be heartbroken but I just wish I wasn’t alive