Husband cheated. And when I say cheated I mean full blown 7 month long affair all while I'm pregnant. And when all my suspicions were confirmed i was livid and so hurt. Who wouldnt be?

But we have decided to work it out. And after i decided i really wanted to give it one more shot i got home and layed in bed with him and he started cuddling me crying and kissing on me just saying sorry over and over again.

Well things escalated and trust me I wasnt planning on opening my legs for him for a very long time... long long time. But I got caught up in the moment. In all the pain and anger and seeing emotion in him for the first time in a year it just happened. And he made love to me deeper and more passionately then we ever have in our entire 5 year marriage. I mean the full blow eye contact while gently pulling my hair so deep in me I could literally cry... ladies I came so hard.

Then he did something I wasnt expecting. Anal.... and it didnt hurt idk what we did. Or how we did it but I can say it was amazing. And it's been non stop since we cant keep our hands off each other. I hate him and I hate her and I'm so hurt but the fucking sex the passion the love. I haven't felt this sexy in years.... can an affair really fix things? I cant believe it happened that he would hurt me like that if any of you knew my husband you would understand why this really blindsided me. But I really feel so different. I feel better. The spark is back. The passion is hotter than ever. The orgasms! I think something's wrong with me that I can hurt so badly and hate him so much but at the same time feel like everything is falling into place. Rant over.

Update: I have been std tested I was tested right after I found out at my obgyn. I'm getting the help I need and we are going to go through marriage counciling. I understand alot of you ladies think I'm dumb and stupid and dont respect myself. But I didnt stay out of lack of self respect. I stayed because I ment my vows the day he married me. If anything like this happened again I'm gone no fucks given trust me ladies. But he is sorry. And I know sorry isnt enough but it's enough to make me want to put the work in. And I know hes capable of change.... when I met him he was abusive in everyway and he found God and changed. You dont hear of very many abusive men changing but he did. If he change behavior like that I have faith he can change this too and hes willing to work on it. He knows I wont tolerate this again. I love my self and I love him and I may deserve someone better but I want him despite it so I'm giving myself a chance to have the man I love despite the heart break and disrespect for me. I feel what I'm doing, giving us one last shot is what's right for me and my marriage. At least then if he does it again or we just dont work out in the end I know I did everything I could to save my marriage. You dont give up on the people you truly love. And the sex weather yall think it's what he did with her or not helps me cope. Takes the edge off. So if I need him to give me mind blowing orgasms to feel better that's my decision. Thank you to all the ladies who have been understanding or just plain respectful despite your opionion thank you for being mature. As for the rude comments thank you for your input but I know my worth and I'm far from stupid. I know what's right for me and I know the risks of another heart break and im not blinded to what it will take to fix my marrige but to me my family staying together is worth the risk.