So i’m pretty sure i’m depressed, i definitely have anger issues, anxiety, and at time suicidal thoughts. My friends know but my family has no clue. I just don’t have the guts to tell the woman and man that game me my life that i don’t want it no more. I was cutting for a while and i stopped and started (subconsciously) going with my nails and stabbing my palms. I cry in the shower nearly every day and i’ve been having multiple emotional and mental breakdowns every week. i’ve been eating significantly less and i’ve just lost any motivation to go out and leave my room. my friends keep telling me to tell my parents personally but i just can’t do it. i’m scared to die but it’s the one thing i want most in the world. my friends have helped me tremendously but i just don’t know why i can’t tell me family. i can’t look over cliffs or apartment balconies because i feel the urge to jump. i just feel like the world would be so much better if i wasn’t in it. i know i’m going to hell so does it really matter whether i go for 1 sin or a million? my life has been so chaotic since age 3. my parents divorced at 3, new stepdad at 7, stepdad and mom almost divorced at 12, and i’ve been to 6 different schools throughout all this. i know very well that there are probably other people who have it worse than me but i don’t want to become the “there’s people who have it worse”. please help me if you’ve gone through something like this and overcame it and how you did... Thank you for getting to the end it means so much to me ♥️♥️♥️🥺