Hi everyone. My husband and I have been trying for about 16 months now. I've gone through periods of being really upset and depressed about not getting pregnant. Other times there has been an almost sense of relief. As each failed month passes I do appreciate the freedom that we have in our lives right now. I suffer from anxiety and although I am not on medication and function pretty normally on a regular basis, it does cause me to get stressed out really quickly. It does scare me to think about going through how I feel with also having a child. Lately I've been trying to process my feelings and wonder if having a child is truly right for me. I've been wondering if maybe my desire is fueled by not wanting to let my parents down my not giving then a grandkid. not sure what I'm really asking here but just wondering if anyone out there has had these feelings or has any advice. Thanks in advance