Being a relationship while have a mental disorder

Can anyone share some struggles hey have found with this? I’ve never been in a relationship before but am worried that once a guy finds out ab my anxiety that they’ll not want to put up with me. I’m currently getting it back under control, but have noticed that it has gotten worse over the years since it’s come back. (Lots of irrational fears ab everything and lots of random attacks).

I’m not even talking to anyone or interested in anyone, just wondering though.

And also, if a guy doesn’t want to put up with my shit, does that just mean he’s not the right guy or does that mean I’m screwed?

*just going to note here that I wouldn’t throw any of this on my future bf (if a ever get one lmfao). Ik if I were in his shoes that I’d be stressed asf ab that. But sometimes it just gets too much and I just don’t know how much ur suppose to talk about this kind of stuff to them or if ur suppose to hide it or what?? I wouldn’t talk about it that much or anything. Only when I were to be having an extremely bad anxiety attack and needed someone to talk to... ig. Idk how relationships work clearly. Wow I sound so dumb rn but I’m just so confused.

Someone want to just give me relationship advice in general and a how to get a bf 101 guide 😂