Just wanted to share the double rainbow we got on our 20 week halfway mark. (Back in April) and some words of encouragement.

My husband and I have been married for almost 9 years and have been together for 12. (Since we were 18 & 19)

After 4 early losses while trying for 5 years and working with a fertility clinic to diagnose (still don’t know why though) and to conceive (a round of clomid and daily progesterone) we finally almost have our rainbow baby in our arms.

The first few weeks it was hard for us to be excited. I remember crying at least once a week when I had the day to myself on the couch while my husband was at work. I cried during multiple ultrasounds in relief that everything so far looked good. It took my husband some time to really voice and show his excitement.

It does get easier and easier with every milestone during the pregnancy to really enjoy it and feel relief and excitement for what’s to come. I really thought I’d have a harder time of it for longer.

I find myself forgetting to take my vitamins sometimes when I had done it religiously weeks or months before and really settling in to the idea that we’re actually going to finally have a baby together.

We still mourn for our previous losses. But I find that talking about it really helps for me. Get it out into the universe so you can work on letting it go. Having others that have similar experiences to discuss also helps. Many hospitals have support groups for pregnancy loss as well.

Our nieces made the sweetest gifts for our baby girl’s nursery and I bawled when I found out one of my nieces painted a rainbow on hers because my sister had told her what a rainbow baby is.

I just wanted to encourage everyone if it’s something that you really want, keep on trying. You’ll get there even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. Turn to medical help and diagnostics if you’re able. There’s no shame in getting help in the process.

If you are pregnant after a loss or multiple losses please take time for yourself to celebrate your pregnancy as well. Go buy a onesie, go pamper yourself a little. Make yourself feel good. Draw yourself a warm (not too hot) bath and relax. Treat yourself to what you’re craving. You’ll be glad that you did even if that little thing doesn’t make a huge impact on your memory.

💕 love and baby dust to all of you trying to conceive, and those pregnant mamas out there. 🌈 your time will come. Keep trying, don’t give up!