I dated my high school sweet heart for 4 years met him when we were 17 and dated until we were 21. Everything seemed amazing, I loved him and he was my whole world. When we first met he’d do anything for me, but as the years went on he seemed to be less interested. He slowly didn’t want to go out, he wanted to sleep in all day wake up at 2 and waste a day away. Don’t get me wrong in between that if I asked enough times or brought it to his attention I wanted a date he’d take me. I just feel like he slowly gave up. We’d hangout, but somehow his friends would always tag along. It got pretty tiring when I just wanted it to be us. We moved to a different state together and things slowly dwindled. He’d get home from working 12 hour days and he worked mon-sat. I would ask him on rare occasions to go somewhere with me and it was a hassle to him. He said “no, I’m tired I don’t want to” (mind you I’d ask like maybe once or twice for that week). We didn’t see one another often so I figured he could just ride with me and enjoy each other’s company.

Well I decided that I wanted to move back home and go back to school. Which, yes I did go to school. However, I got back home and bought a car so I had to drop out and workU another job to afford it. When I was here something just felt off between us. We were always arguing, he wasn’t nice and I didn’t want to deal with that being so far away. We broke up, but still stayed in contact. He would only be back home in a couple months.

In between that time we both made the poor decision of hooking up with a few people. He found a few girls in the other state, I found some people here. Well.. when he got back home I didn’t want to tell him what happened. I was soo scared of what he would say. I went a week without saying anything and someone we both associate with brought it to his attention what I had done. He lost it, I was a little whore, I was a slut, how could you?, I’m so done, you’re nasty, you’re a cum rag. Also, one of those guys I had seen in between time was one of his friends. I DID NOT hook-up with him, but he had offered me to come to his house and talk about my ex and his ex. We were both going through break-ups and I thought he would know a bit more about my ex than me. As we were talking his friend leaned in for a kiss, I immediately pulled back and told him this is not that and I’m working on things with my ex and I’m not interested in doing anything wrong w him. He was his friend and that’s wrong.

So now to this day we have been seeing one another still. We hook-up and hangout and go out to eat w each other. I’m just at a loss what to do. Everyday it’s “I can’t believe you did this”, “I should’ve left you in the dust months ago”, “you’re a nasty little whore.”, “you just had to go find dick elsewhere.” But mind you he hooked up with multiple females and even while we’ve still been seeing each other I’ve caught him on tinder, snap chatting people and as well as texting. We were broken up when all this happened and you would’ve thought I cheated. I basically beg someone everyday to love me.

Also, I share my location with him. (I have it on because I get tired of being told I’m lying) He’s allowed to go wherever whenever and I’m not allowed to go anywhere I goes he’s with me. We have NEVER been this way. This isn’t us. It’s killing me to say bye to him.

Not to mention he went to a concert last night and openly told me he got some girls snap to fuck.

Here is just some of the evil shit I hear everyday: