I’ve been in a relationship since February. Found out I was pregnant July 31st. Then started what I thought was a yeast infection. Until it worsened and I developed sores. Got swabbed for herpes and started on valtrex. In literally the worst pain of my life. Having to pee in the shower, lidocaine cream and A&D ointment just to keep myself from crying when I walked. The entire time I’m in literally the worst pain in my life, silence from my boyfriend. Sure he was supportive and even held my hand as I was swabbed again at my first OB appointment where the midwife said it looked like herpes and gave me a stronger dose of valtrex. All the while he’s acting innocent, like he doesnt know what could be causing it. Helping me search the internet for possible answers. All while he knew in 2018 he tested positive, and again retested in June. Positive. He knew and didn’t disclose. He knew I was pregnant with his child, and he remained silent. Only when I confronted him did he come clean and show me. Herpes type 1. Now I don’t know if I want to continue this pregnancy. Do I abort? I’m 5+1, so early enough to take the pill. But I’m conflicted. Having a baby is something ive wanted my entire life. But I don’t love this baby knowing it would be keeping him in my life forever. I’m so torn. I don’t know what to do. I can’t do this. My family is supportive of aborting, but this is still my baby. I’m just so sick to my stomach. If anyone has gone through something similar, please help!!